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Life is hopefully going to slow down a bit now that school is done. I always find it funny that I'm so excited to be done with school and have summer come, only to find out that summer is boring or crappy because I don't get to see a lot of my friends -yeah, waitressing bites when you have to work second shift most of the time and work really late on friday and saturday nights.  I mean, it's nice to have a job that pays well for the summer, but sometimes, I feel like I'd rather have a worse job so that I could hang out with my friends on the weekend. 

This weekend is going to a close to the four years (or 3 1/2 if you count the semester I went to New Zealand) of college.  Wow. I'm truly nearing the end of the college years. In some ways, it's exciting to start a new chapter of my life.  I feel similar to they way I felt when I graduated from high school. But, now I feel like the real world truly begins. It's kinda scary. Actually, I'm terrified.

All three of my closest friends from HS that attended Calvin are getting married--(ironically all to engineers) So, they are beginning a new chapter too...quite a bit different from the stage of life that I'm in.  Two of them are moving away--one to Chicago (she is going to grad school) and one to Palo Alto (her fiancee is going to Stanford for engineering).  Crazy.  So is life.  

So what's next?  I don't know.  I'm working as PCA (personal care attendant) for a quadrapelgic, waitressing, and possibly working as a nursing assistant this summer. Next fall, I got offered a job as a Physical Therapy Tech, so I'll probably take that and take one more pre-req class for PT school.  But, I kinda don't know if I want to go to PT school yet.  This semester burned me out, so I think I need to take some time to figure out what I want to do with my life. 

I really want to move to a place where I can go hiking on the weekends (I mean hiking in a place where their are real mountains...not michigan hills). Ever since I went on a family vacation in Colorado (when I was 14), I've wanted to live in a place that is mountainous.

But, I don't want to live in a place just because it has mountains. I don't want my adventous heart to fall in "wanderlust"--where I am never content with where I am living. Michigan is beautiful. Esp. in the summer. Up north is even better, esp. along the lakeshore. Michigan is where all my family is and I do consider it home.

Although it is home, at some point in time I realize that I need to be independent from my parents and separte myself.  Separtation is a part of growing up.  Separation is a part of life.  Maybe it is time for me to move on.